When I grow up, I wanna be a [reality] star!

Seeing as how tonight is the Season Premiere of my very favorite train wreck (you know, the kind of show you know is terrible but can’t seem to peel your eyes away from?) I thought today was the perfect time to post this.

When I was a little girl, I used to think my life was a film. I always acted like I was on camera: I reenacted scenes from my favorite movies and would make up my own interview answers/acceptance speeches to practice in the mirror. There’s no doubt that I was born a performer, always putting on a show, but deep down, I wanted more – I wanted to be a bona fide celebrity.

I remember idolizing celebrities because of their talent, their beauty, their overall appeal as my role model and how people should use their “powers” towards good and not evil. Now, I hear little girls talk about how much they love Snooki and Jwoww, obviously a constant example of being a model citizen… ::eeeenk:: goes the buzzer. I’ll admit, I am even fascinated with these personalities and how they’ve managed to build their empire out of basically being total wreck. And I’m not gonna lie, I would probably step right up and sign my life away for a TV contract to get paid to “live my life” (or the producers’ desired interpretation of it.)

I feel like this all spanned from the Paris Hilton/Kim Kardashian era. I mean really… look where that got us. Paris is constantly thrown in jail for random acts of drug use and Kim (who is famous for making a sex tape with a pop star’s brother) will even go so far as to get married to pull in her ratings, marketing, and profit. With that said, times are hard so everyone’s just trying to get their dollar where they can. Find the easiest and quickest way to money… anyway you can… Terrible. Just terrible.

Bottom line – what happened to wanting to be something of value? A real example for the future generations to come? Wanting to make a difference? And of course, some stars are still doing great things with their fame and fortune but, as a whole – What the hell is going on, society?! And you wonder why and how we got to be in such a sh*thole…

(and again… the real travesty and matter of fact: against all my better moral compass, I’m still 99% sure that I would sign a reality contract today if it was offered to me… those damn beezys are lucky as crap and I’m totally envious! And I love these shows. It’s a total guilty pleasure I cannot deny myself. Jersey Shore, Toddlers In Tiaras, etc…. can’t seem to get behind the Bachelor… although I guess never say never…)